lazy sundays..

so today i gave a talk in church and it was alright. i cried and i was embarrassed. anyway (this is for you kaelie) i got my dress for sweethearts!

I got some fishies!!

look at my cute new fishes. the best part is they havent gone belly-up yet...

KAY_LAY IS HOMEEE. oh and bud and wendy are here tooo.

Bud needs to go home. he keeps on making me pull his finger and then...you know...he toots. haha actually i love my uncle bud and i wish we lived closer. he is my favorito. emily wants me to blog about how cool she is...but then i would be bluffing the whole thing. any way..earlier today, kaelie told me that she wasnt going to come up here. then i went to go help bud unload his car and there she was..stowed away like some illegal immigrant getting over the border. anyway. maegen is off to bed. early morning tomorrow :)

maegen has school spirit!!! go drill team!!

ok so pretty much our drill team owned at region. they won 1st in all categories and took region! i had so much fun. aghhhh i believe my voice is gone :/ anyway..Good night Utah!

my future..

today for young womens, we went to veronica micheals to try on some modest wedding dresses. through the crowd of all the girls i finally mosied around them and returned to my dressing room. i looked into the mirror as i stood in my cream colored dress with the intricate beading at the top and the bunched veil that trailed the whole length of the dressing room. i just couldnt help but think how fast life is creeping up on me. within the next 10 years i would be picking out my very own wedding dress and preparing to go full force into a whole new life with a spouse. suprisingly, it wasnt a happy feeling. i didnt like it. i guess i just have a long way to go until i at least feel the littlest ounce of ready. then i thought "i shouldnt be preparing for anything!! i am 16. boys right now are just for kissing anyway :) right? yeah i have blogged way too many times in one day than should be allowed. i guess i am a blogging-whore. goodnight utah!

to my sister..

kaelie i love you and i miss you very much everyday. i miss hanging out all the time when we were little. i miss talking to you about everything. somewhere deep down inside i am very excited for you to come home for the summer. come visit me.

snuggie

what the heck is this! some sort of baby prison??

i want a real snuggie. probably gonna go get one when i have money. i dont think my parentals would waste money on the single most retarded invention in the world. anyway, i feel so so bad for this child. it can hear it crying right now. i know i would be... :/

Advice to Live by..

- Wake up and tell yourself it is going to be a good day
- Keep your word
- Treat others as you would be treated
- Always have music and books in your life
- Love people. Use things. Never get the 2 confused
- Don't put off traveling. See the world while your able.
- Work as hard on the last day of the job as you did the first.
- Stay in your lane.
- Don't confuse a want with a need
-Forgive others. You are giving the gift of peace to yourself
-If you want things to change in your life, start with your own thinking
-Don't lie to anyone, including yourself
-Find the good in people. Everybody has something
-Do what is right, not what is easy
-Choose what is wise, rather than what is fair
-Don't make someone your priority when they make you his option
-Under promise and over deliver
-Don't let your mood make up your mind.
- Listen to your mother.
-Don't ever regret growing older. Many don't have that privilege.
-Learn to listen
-Don't be afraid to be different
-Even when your nervous, act like your confident
- Never burn a bridge. Just shut them down for renovations for a while.

I need to start being happy in my life, and stop worrying about how to fix things that i can't. I can't control what happens one third of the time, but i can try and make things stop from happening and if it doesn't work, i need to move on. starting today i am a new Maegen Searle. starting today i have a new outlook on my life.

ok so today was the first day of the second semester. DUMB. then i got home. being home has always been an aventure as of late. well not really. BUT i find it quite entertaining. emily came home sick and i keep making fun of her and saying that she has something that just might be too innapropriate to publish of this sophistocated blog. now she is just passed out on the couch as shown to your right. abbey doesnt know when to not get on my nerves as she is simply dancing on them like a tightrope. pretty sure i am about to push her off. my dearest mother says to be nice, but she starts it (you like how she says the same thing about me). i think it will be a constant unsolvable problem until she can understand i have a bubble just a little under the size of the world. but i guess i need to grow up a little and stop fighting with lil' sis. anyway as of right now emily is curled up on the couch just about to keel over dead. my dad is playing with his "pokemon cards" and he got these new reading glasses that make his eyes look like the size of the glasses themself. anyway i need to figure out how this blog thing works so catch ya laterrr